Oh Edward!
Okay. Okay. I don´t even know what has happened here. The Internet kind of ate me up and I didn´t take the time to write anything decent here in my journal. Also, twitter does take up a lot of the spontaneous rambly sort of things that I´d usually put in here. But I yearn, I yearn for fandom and for you people who have so kindly not deleted me (*checks friends table*) from your flists. So how are you all? Like, seriously!

People I´ve been in London! Let me write about that in the next post or so because it has been aösdlkfjdlskfjamazing!

Inspired by muhsilisk 's brave example I started working through the Twilight audio books because everyone´s talking about it and I didn´t want to be a douche bitching about books I haven´t read.
I finished the first one in three days (13 or so hours) and am now 5 hours into the second.
Here´s the thing about Twilight: There´s this girl arriving in town who is soooo soooo average that all the boys love her immediately and all the girls want to be friends with her. But Bella doesn´t care about all the crab characters Stephenie Meyer created for her to be surrounded with and only has eyes for sparkly vampire Edward who wants to drink her floral-scented blood. She doens´t like snow for no appearant reason and there are so many redundant-redundant scenes in the book that all work after the same pattern:
 
When Edward gives her his "crooked smile" Bella says, "I love you."
Then Edward with his smoldering brown/topaz/butterscotch/honey-coloured eyes responds, "I´m dangerous. I could kill you."
Bella: That´s hot. Also, your breath smells good.
Edward: Right...

and so on.
Yes, I know everything that´s wrong about it. Yes, I keep noticing the strange world views that are inherent to the story. Yes. Yes. I know. I should not like it. Yes.

But I do. I keep wanting more of it. Sure, it´s easier to get through the repetitive style when listening and not actually reading.
I´m pretty sure that for me the great thing about it is self-indulgence. Like with the Potter books I love knowing that there´s this whole little universe I´m going to launch myself into. I like spending a long time with certain characters and despite all that is wrong with the relationship of the two main characters, Edward is a Byronic hero and I just can´t tear myself away from those. But maybe it´s just time that House starts with its new season, so I can have a clever Byronic hero back.
There´s more yet, being inside Bella´s head is like I can listen to a version of myself that´s being stupid and unlikable and selfish and over emotional and redundant (oh, redundant, believe me!). I´m glad I have Bella for that, that I can roll my eyes at her for being practically suicidal in her wish to conjure up hallucinations about Edward. You know what? In New Moon, the second book, I start feeling for her because she´s in this bubble of despair and hearing her bemoan her pain makes me sad, too. I feel that she had at least some reasons for being so moronic in the beginning. She becomes more and more flawed. And there are werewolfs. Good times.

The books are not what I would call "a good read" neither would I recommend anyone to spend money on them (I didn´t).
But it´s somehow a good feeling to know that I can indulge in trash and yet not feel guilty about it. And the do have a gothic touch to them that I´m really into. Sexual suppression is a  major theme that has surfaced in every vampire story I know and I don´t see why people blame Stephenie Meyer for centering her story around it and with that, allegedly, showing young people a dangerous view of sexuality. Read this vampire story and tell me, the narrator isn´t kind of lunatic for being so obsessed with female vampire Carmilla. That´s right. The story is from 1872.
I also liked the film because it´s not so friggin redundant and is lightened in a way I really love. It really improves the book and I´m absolutely looking forward to the next film.

Knowing what I know about the creepy impulsiveness of the Twilight fandom I´m not in the least tempted to enter all the hoopla.
It´s great to know the story and what all this fuss is about and I can definitely see the appeal. So, yeah. What do you think?